GOING GOME FOR HOLIDAYS

Today is my last day here in Moscow before going back to Malaysia for holidays (goodbye to 5th year) , well i'll be coming back here in September for my final year as a medical student before graduating and be a real doctor.

Thank God also for being with me through my finals, I'm actually kinda happy with my final results this year, really a blessing from God.

And well i actually can't wait to go home, it's been a year since i went back and i really misses my family and friends even though we do keep in contact through MSN. And definitely not forgetting Malaysian food.

Well i think the rest i'll write when i go back, anyway just can't wait to fly back 2molo. hooray!!!

Happy Father's day

Today throughout the world people are celebrating Father's day. Beside my Father in heaven, i would also like to thank my dad for the things he had done in my life. My dad is one whom i respect a lot. Even though he's a man, but he helps out a lot in the house especially with going marketing with my mum and also cooking for my family (before i take over).

He's the one who told me who God is, and has always been my personal mentor with God's word and also with my school work, he teach me practically all the subjects especially mathematic and add maths which i'm really terrible in it.

Even though many times he always scold me for being careless and blur (which i really am) i know he does it for my own good, he wants me to be a responsible doctor and not make careless mistake and harm others (even though i don't think so, coz i only careless with my own stuff).

i remembered everytime when i want him to buy something for me, he always says no in the 1st place but deep down i know he has a soft spot which needs a little 'manja'. well no matter how old i may be i'm still my daddy's girl wat.

Well just wanna wish my dad Happy father's day, May God bless you and that to me, you're the best dad i could ever have and that i really love you.

LOOKING BACK

Famous view in Moscow (taken in red square)

As I'm approaching the end of my 5th year here in Moscow Medical academy in Moscow Russia, somehow looking back for the 5 and half years I've been studying and staying here, there are bitter sweet memories.

Studying medicine here in Moscow was a big challenge in the beginning. When i 1st came here, i can't speak a word of Russian, the people here seems to be cold and everything seems to be hair wire, there weren't many Malaysians here that time and it was quite a tough time.

Things here are so expensive and eating out here really cost a lot. i remembered last time i do not dare to go to the market because i do not know russian and i do not know how to buy food, i always end up buying things i do not want. Sometimes the shopkeeper and I do not understand each other and that causes the shopkeeper to be frustrated and i remembered i got so much yelling from them. This is 'sloika' it's a bun with different kinda of stuffing in it. I used to eat it
almost everyday as it was one of the cheapest food or snack for lunch.

This is kotlet, it's actually meat with different stuffing (cheese,
spinach, mushroom sauce, sour cream etc.) weird but delicious one of my favourite.

This is one of the russian soup that i like 'borsh' it's healthy and yum yum

But somehow, as years goes by, things get better. I'm now attending a international church where there are many Russians that can speak english and i got to learn the language from them, as i begin to learn and speak their language, things got so much easier in communication, My lessons are mostly in English and the more i learned the more i found out that this country has a very deep base and history in medicine. And i actually find it interesting an did not regret coming here to study. This is a pic of my main university (dean office mainly) but my classes are usually
in other hospital which are located all around moscow.

Many Malaysia's doctor do comment that students studying in Russia are terrible, i do not know about other universities but in my uni, it's nothing like that. The lecturers do their best to teach us students what they know and many times it's us students ourselves who does not have the initiative to learn. Many times we complain that this lecturer does not teach well, i don understand what they are saying etc, But come on we're all Universities student, we ourselves should take the initiative to learn and read up on certain topics or disease and if we really don understand that's when our lecturers come in, instead of expecting our lecturers to spoon feed us.

Living and studying here had really been a great experience for me, beside studying, i know a bunch of good friends, group mates, room mates and block mates. I also learn how to deal with problems, stress, loneliness, depression (of course with God's help). I also learn to look at things or situation with a different perspective.

It's definitely not easy to leave home and come to a strange land, it really takes lots o courage. For those who are like me being so far away will understand how much it takes to go through all these for 6 years or more. (Dealing with home sick, missing food back home, dealing with different types of people in group and even the room or block really do gives us a different kind of experience) and i believe that once we can go through all this with the right attitude and character, we are made ready for the future awaiting for us.

A MUST WATCH SERIES: FORENSIC HEROES 2

For those who had watch forensic heroes 1, TVB is back with forensic heroes 2, currently it's till episode 13 out of 30 episodes.


Why do i say it's a must watch series? well besides of the handsome actors and beautiful actresses, this series is also about finding truth through evidence from the dead body and the surroundings. Even though I'm not a pro in this field, but i can say that there's much to learn about forensic. For those who like CSI i think this series will be of interest to you. Well for a series lover like me, if i say a series is good, it's good.

UNCERTAINTIES

Today i just finish my 2nd paper: therapy final. And once again Thank God and Praise God for what i get, He always give me more than i expected. This whole week was a tough week as many exams cramp together and i think one thing i lean most is to trust God even though i feel like giving up and lose hope.

Don't know why many uncertainties fill me mind, as I'm about to finish my 5th year, i realized that i have only one more year before i graduate and become a medical intern and then doctor. In a year time I'll really be dealing with life and death. One thing I'm really unsure of is that will i be a good doctor (good in knowledge, practical and attitude). To me, this is like no other job where it deals with non living things, what doctors are dealing is life and death, one can make a mistake and there goes the patient's life, and this is no joke. (it' scary).

No doubt i have deep passion and love for medicine, the more i study the more i like what i study, it's amazing on how human is so different from one another and why are there so many disease, the different way of diagnosing it and treating it etc, it's all so challenging and interesting. But working life is different, u have to put what u learn into real practice, what we're doing affects people's life physically and mentally and there's no room to play a fool.

But no one really seems to understand. Many thinks that i'm smart so i definitely can handle, but i don understand why everybody thinks that i know everything, it really stresses me out. i'm also someone who is learning, i don have all the answers and cure, i'm also human to worry and be anxious (even though i know that God is with me ), so hai...... ( i don even know why i'm saying this).

But one thing i know is that i really need strength and courage to deal with all these uncertainties. But looking at the future, can i see myself as a good doctor, i really don know???