BEFORE PSYCHIATRY FINAL

Me and my psychiatry class notes (tired of studying)

Well I'm currently preparing for my psychiatry final 2molo, it's really a challenge for me. Since young or i could say the reason why i came to study medicine is because i wanna be psychiatrist and i had waited to study this subject for like so long and finally i got to learn about psychiatric disorder and see different patients with mental illness.

Well no doubt this subject is really interesting but it's really tough as it has many different terms and it mainly deals with psychic disorder (sensation disorder, perception disorder, thought disorder, obsessions and compulsion disorder, will and behavior disorder, motor disorder, intellect disorder, memory disorder and other associate diseases).

The more i read or study the more i think or feel that all of us are really prone to develop any of these disorder (neuroses or psychoses). It's just that whether are we able to adapt to it or not, if not it'll be known as DIS ADAPTATION (where detachment from reality and society occur and thus we see so call people who are weird or different). There is so much to this subject that i do not know where to start, but if anyone who read this has any question on any psychiatry problem feel free to ask me ( hehe...)

Well i think i have done my best to prepare for 2molo exams. i have faith that i won't fail 2molo but i really wanna score well and get a 5 for this subject as i really like this subject, so I'll just go in faith and put my trust in God that He'll bring me through as i had done my part to do my best. For with Him all things are possible. But anyway i will still give God all the glory for whatever result i get 2molo.

MEMORIALS OF MY GREAT GRANDMOTHER

Today was a sad day, when i was in lecture this morning, i suddenly receive a sms from my mum saying that my Great grandmother has pass away, i was shocked and sad when i heard the news, my tears just came out unknowingly but i try to calm myself down and wiped off my tears as i was in the lecture hall.

Throughout the day, i was feeling sad and guilty not able to be back there to see her last face and all the memories of her just came flashing into my mind (how she took care of me when i was young; how she ask me to eat or bath but i was not able to understand fuk chow and she'll be like saying i used to be able to speak fuk chow well but now why i was not able; how i try to learn some 'fuk chow' to try to converse with her etc).

My great grandmother pass away due to an acute heart attack, and to look closely at my mother's side family medical history most of them like my grandparents and mother either have cardiovascular disease or high risk of it. And i really want to be a good doctor to be able to sort of like help them prolong life span with medicine (silly isn't it), but this was the 1st time i experienced death of someone close to me and that feeling is really ....... but somehow i believe that God will bring be through esp now exam time (need to concentrate)

All i could say that life is really short and i really think we should learn to treasure people around us, be it our families or friends. Don't ever think that it's still early or there's still time as we never know what will happen to us. So treasure everyday of our life and the people around us the way God wants us to love and care and live life to the fullest.

STRESS OUT

This month is such a tough month, not only do i have Paediatrics and psychiatry cycle, i also have a practical final and MCQ finals for paediatric on (20th and 26th May) and also psychiatry final on the 30th May, then on 2nd June i have therapy final, 6th June paediatrics oral final, 11th June Infectious disease final and 16th June surgery final.

All these subjects need to study thick textbooks, lecture notes, class notes and find extra info from internet. I really need strength and wisdom from God to go through this. But definitely i have to put in extra effort and concentration as these exams are gonna be hard, tough and nerve racking
and one thing for sure, i do not want to be the kind of person who just study to pass exam but i look for more, i study hard so that i can be a good doctor (not just with the knowledge but with a teachable heart).

Happy Mother's day

When i was young i always think that my mother loved my brother more, as she was very strict on me and she makes me do more house chores than my brother.

But then later as I grow up, when i'm in secondary school, I started to realize that she does care for me in her own mother to daughter way. I remember she makes sure we have enough money to buy our own lunch, always bear with me even when i talk back at her (as you know teenagers are rebellious), forgives me when i break her heart, buy things that i like even though after much nagging, encourage me to study medicine when i doubt that medicine will be too hard.

Then when i decided to come over to Moscow to pursue my medical studies, i realized she worries so much for me, and make sure i have the warmest jacket, blanket etc, and when we 1st parted at the airport about 5 years ago, i saw tears in her eyes that makes me cry, and from then on, I'm confirmed that my mum love me just as much as he loves my brother (she does not tell it out, but she shows it in our everyday conversation and during the yearly 2months time we spend together).

Well i just wanna thank God for blessing me with such a great mum, just wanna wish my mum HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY and that i really treasure and appreciate what you did for me. Thank You

THOUGHT DISORDER

This month I'm having paediatrics in the morning and psychiatry in the afternoon from Monday to Friday. It's a hectic and busy cycle as both these 2 subjects are difficult but they are definitely really interesting and challenging.

Today in psychiatry class we learned about thought disorder. How normally people think about certain things and also the thought of PSYCHOPATHIC PATIENT and the thought of GENIUS are actually quite similar. We also learned about many new psychiatry medical terms and there was one which is very interesting:
The disease that this particular patient has is known as paralogia (illogical thinking) combine with Symbol thinking. Paralogic thinking actually means thought that contains erroneous or strange extreme substances, whereas symbol thinking are thoughts based on great deal of symbol giving them special meaning.

Back to the patient: the patient is a male patient who thinks that he is god, creator of all life, and he thinks that his twin sister who is female (due to her as an opposite sex) is the devil as devil brings death (opposite of life is death). So the patient has this thought that he has to protect the world and by doing so he has to kill his sister (death) so that his 'sister' will not be able to bring death to the world. But then one night when he was about to kill his sister he suddenly asked himself this question:

"How unbearable the dead body will be when it's dead" and then he gave up the idea to kill his sister.

Do you find it weird? well Of course it's weird, people who is in their right mind will not think about whether will a dead body feel unbearable after it die.

Wow, when i heard that, i find it so 'geli'. I was like thinking to have these kind of thought disorder it's actually very scary and torturing, sometimes i really feel that people with mental illness are actually quite 'kasihan' as they are not able to control their illness and their thought. and i really do admired the courage of psychiatrist who are willing to make this decision to help and improve the condition of these patients.

Finally EXECISE

2 days ago, on the 1st of May (labour day), my hotspot friends (MF) and I (about 13 of us) went to the park nearby our hostel for picnic and outing. We played captain ball, volleyball, ayam dan helang, ice and water aka kejar kejar (ya kinda childish, play just for fun), ate, drank, took lots of silly photos etc. well i enjoyed a lot and it's like a stress relieving activity before my next cycle and coming finals, and right after that day, my whole body is aching as i had not been exercising for the past almost one year due to the weather, busyness, and not to mention laziness. (that's me, lazy will always be my last excuse hehe). Bollywood picture (hiding behind the trees)

Aren't we gorgeous and funny